4 months to go! I can do this!
These past few months have been hard. I feel like my relationship with God is struggling, I’m having a hard time keeping focused on school and a lot of the time I’m just feeling hopeless. I feel that in order for things to work out in my life I need to focus on God and put him as my number one priority. Ever since, I’ve felt God telling me that I need to listen to his plan and everything else will fall into place. I know that I need to re-prioritize my life but its just SO hard. Every time I try getting close to God, I get frustrated and give up. But without Him my life is that much harder and that much more complicated. I want God to be my everything, but why is it so hard to follow through with what your heart wants? I don’t even know whats holding me back…I just need God to be the focus and center of my life right now.
After endless hours of going up the “chicken” hill, falling on my butt endless amounts of times, attempting to ride the tow rope but falling about 20 times so eventually walking up the whole hill, running away from a fox, falling off the t-bar so many times that the man had to go up with me just so i could get up the hill….i can finally get myself up and attempt to ride a snowboard! YAY…im so proud of myself!
After all that I think I wanna try snowboarding again!
If someone wants to walk out of my life, I’ll let them. No matter how much I love them or how much I’ll miss them, if they want to leave, i’ll let them. I’m not gonna chase after anyone who doesn’t want to be apart of my life. Thats pointless. Even if I do convince them to stick around, I know deep down that they would have made a different decision if I hadn’t said anything. Besides, why would I want someone around who doesn’t want to be there? I’m not going to fight for someone who doesn’t appreciate me as much as I appreciate them.